Dream

Ever had a dream of someone you hadn't spoken to on years?! That mess is weird! It compels me to reestablish contact though. Then you think.....does this person remember me? Does she know or care that I remember her? Is this extra random?
All questions I ask....

One O' Dem Days....

This is one of those mornings where I haven’t been to sleep, cause I’m just up thinking…about that one person that brings me joy. The one on the top of my list, at the front of my brain, in the center of the stage.





Oh, the content from here and on my tumblr page is nearly the same?! Pshh see how much I care now..... :-p

And it ain’t bad….I just can’t sleep cause I’m so excited and anxious and curious….

Sharing is Caring

I look back and realize, I've always been a very creative person but I would hardly admit it to myself. I surely wouldn't let anyone else find out! Lol I was writing and singing wayyy back in elementary school to no one but myself...and it satisfied my soul...

I suppose I can share it now...I know I'm willing to....

Look Back Real Fast then Keep It Moving

These last couple months have been a blur. I really have been looking forward to the end of this school year though. I'm really reflecting for just a bit on the things that have been going on in my life, but I know I'm not going to spend much time on it. Too much reflection has been an issue of mine...I'm looking to just go on and live my life. I'm taking lessons from whomever I meet and making my own mistakes to learn from.

What can teach you better than your own errors?

Decisions

That time is coming around again. It's about time for me to make a final decision about what's going on here. And patience is the key to it all. This decision, I need to make on my own...but I'll ask for a tiny bit of help along the way. There also feels like there's so much hanging in the balance...what to lose...what to gain....

I know my speaking is unclear. It's meant to be. With time all things shall be revealed...All I can say is, this duality is such a hang up. And I cannot let it go on much longer.

The Gardener

After I’ve struggled, I’ve seen lots of stuff is getting exed out of my life and tons of stuff coming to replace it. Those things I see coming…are all things to help improve my life. Those items I didn’t need they’re getting pulled like weeds.

I’m sowing seeds,

God’s growing ‘em.

God’s pulling weeds,

And I’m throwing ‘em…

God’s tending to his many gardens.

MidTerm Week

I've come to the end of a very long, eventful week! I loved it though! I can admit I feel like I lived a lil. As I come close to my 37th hour of no sleep all I can say is, "Rest well-deserved!"

Now chillin' with the fellas!




Hope your week was even better wonderful than mine!

More...

So many things to do, opportunities to seize, people to hang with, television to watch, work to do, business to take care of...

Simple prayer:
God, please direct my path. I am listening. Amen.

These Stolen Moments

My favoritest cousin in the whole wide universe helped me with one of my revelations... Something I've known oh, sooooo long ago: We as teachers, big brothers and sisters, parents, and friends have a responsibility to make our students, siblings, children, and friends better than us. I wanted them to play better than me. I said that and one day and as a response I got back something like, 'I'm not going to be better [than you], just more practiced.' (Disclaimer: not a direct quote mind you...it's pretty close and this is to make a point remember that.) That statement had a lotta truth to it, but I also had to think about it just because I hold such a different sentiment. Because I know (and feel) it's my job to help make them better than me. That's what I want!

We should work toward this in every aspect of our lives. The people we hold near and dear to us, challenge them to be better and hold them accountable for their actions. Don't persecute them for their mistakes. We're not trying to make ya feel bad now... We just need to lift one another up as human beings.

There also seems to be an issue with that nowadays. We never want anyone to be better than us at what we do. In reality though, there will always be someone better than us somewhere...we may as well accept that fact and be as good as we are capable of. As long as we put all our hearts into our craft, no one can tell you a damn thing about what you're doing (as long as it's positive, constuctive, and uplifting, of course)! As my friend always says, "If I'm outta line, lemme know!" Am I wrong for that?

As long as we hold this in regard, we'll become better people and more importantly, our children will grow up with so much verve, hunger, and passion to accomplish whatever it is they need to...

I look forward to that world.





I'm playing Stolen Moments by DJ MITSU the BEATS!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQ_IZWu80V4

Chillin'.....TOUGH!!!!

It's great chillin' and finally being able to chill. I love my friends. They make my life wonderful and exciting and extra super goofy...YES! I'm talking to you! You know who you are!!

My friends make my heart feel wonderful!







...this blog sounds like a paper I would've written in 3rd grade...ha!

So Much Time....

These last few weeks as I struggle to keep up with all the craziness going on in my life, I keep being reminded of a line from "Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory". When they first come in the factory, after the kids sign the contracts he leads everyone with him and says something like: [There's] so much time and so little to do/see. (I can't remember which one he says...don't feel like looking it up either) Of course since the opposite was true he then corrects himself with: Strike that. Reverse it.

It's a funny lil' saying that I love to use and can always attribute it to the almost chaotic schedule that I sometimes live out. It also reminds me of the times when I'm not busy. The times when I feel like time is infinite and I have nothing to do...those bored times...just looking at the complete duality of the saying. It calms me a bit because when I'm busy I always say,"Glad I'm not bored at least." Same thing when I'm bored...I feel content with that current situation.

My situation now...(busy, slightly chaotic, almost keeping it held together, but hanging in there....)I wouldn't trade it for the universe!





Objective viewpoints/objectivity...where has it gone? Have we stopped caring about it?

Tres Typique...A Valentines' Day Post

I've been thinking a lot this Valentines' Day on what this particular holiday could mean to me. In my younger days (I said that like I'm old), I looked upon this day with a lot of disdain and a helluva lot of contempt...these days I just don't really give a flyin' spider monkey. But I feel this year is different, my mind is changing it's view ever so slightly...

But today, I will talk to the persons that I care for, and reach out to the ones that don't quite care for me. I suppose people make this holiday what it is, so maybe I should celebrate my love for the people in my life on this day....Even though they already know I love 'em.

But, I suppose that's a start, eh?

I have another blog! Yayness!

Here's the first post from my new blog on tumblr:

Man!!! :-)

That’s the only word to describe it…

I had the greatest time tonight. Got a chance to rehearse with Jacob Huffman (country music artist and fellow tsu student and giant picture) and his crew at a nice studio! And when I say we had fun, we had some friggin’ fun! The other guitarist was even nice enough to fix Constance for me. Straight up blessing. I realized tonight of all nights just what a talent God has given me and what a pleasure it is to play and sing music.

Even these country tunes can be fun! lol





I got lazy today and didn't feel like writing a seperate blog for this...if this trend keeps up......*shakes my head*

Jacob Huffman

Two blogs....What to do?

I have two blogs now after this whole situation with my friend starting a blog and me wanting to keep up with that. I just went ahead and signed up...wasn't hard...then I was like....sooooooo what now. I've been thinking about what to make that other blog into for the last couple days and the only thing I can think of...are things dealing with stuff I like. And stuff that's kinda less personal. Nobody likes sappy, self-focused crap! Which is what I feel this blog has turned into.

It makes me feel better to write that stuff though. I believe the word is catharsis.

But anyways, I will let you know when the new stuff pops off.

Could be endless possibilities!!!!





Just had a thought: Why do I tend to be so tight-lipped aside from dire situations...? Well...bleh (I dunno). That's gonna be my answer to everything now...bleh.
Bleh... (bye)!

Happy Belated New Year!!!

This guy is just too excited!!! I'm with him though!!


It's been a couple months and a single digit change in the year since I last blogged....so Happy New Year!! It's a new year and not much has changed. I'm still trying to get my tasks completed like always. Hope the year's going well so far for you, my readers.
There's more to come later.

Peace.