Catching Up

I've gone on a wonderful journey these last couple of years. I had an interesting (horrific) relationship that I was wonderfully happy to be fired from. I then spent the last year and a half "finding myself" (mostly living like a monk, the "no sex" included) and going through all kinds of random adventures and misadventures with work, home life, family, and school.... I've publicly claimed my atheism also. It's literally the biggest thing that has happened in my life. It's affected every other aspect of it too. Fighting against the norm, for once in my life, has transformed me into the stand--up guy/fighter that I always kinda was (in my mind). Basically gave me a reason to speak up and voice what's on my mind. I'd always have opinions, I'd just hardly ever voice them. Letting go of God (so to speak) has allowed me to embrace life for what it is, life!! I enjoy each day a little more knowing that this is all we get. I love a little harder and pay closer attention just because I dig life. Of course there's tons of opposition to my position but I've been learning how to deal with all of that properly...by conveying my views and respecting other folks views as well. It's been quite a lot to deal with but all-in-all, I'm a happier person today than I was a couple of years ago. I always wanted to be a different person, now I am. I"m not the radically different guy I thought I'd change into but rather the different, ever evolving version of myself. Now listening to: Places and Spaces by Donald Byrd (song is wonderful and the LP is too)!

"Ain't Nobody Got Time For That!" ~Bronchitis lady

I've been avoiding writing a post for weeks now, just because I know there's a hell of a lot to catch up on. Right now, (See title). Currently, I'm listening to an old favorite while I write this, Aruarian Dance by Nujabes. Just a lil something to help me focus on this while I listen to my co-worker ramble on about government conspiracies and hear the sound of trash bags rustling as it gets changed by the EVS employee. I always have so much to think about and so much to do it seems. I'm trying not to think about buying Christmas presents right now or how much I wish I was with my girlfriend...yes, I too, have a girlfriend. Sorry ladies but she is wonderful and I'm taken! Step off! (Not that I have a gaggle of fan girls trying to get with me as they anxiously await my blog posts...) I am just sitting here writing rambles right now. The most significant change since the last time I wrote is that I have officially come out....(wait for it) as an atheist. Just saying it out loud has helped me be so much more comfortable in my own skin. I feel remarkable (most days, cause sometimes you have crappy ones...everyone does) when I wake up every afternoon and know that I love me and I am the sole keeper of my destiny. There's a lot that goes with that especially growing up a black man in America originally from central Alabama where Jesus and the Crimson Tide are the most important conversation topics. I'm glad to have found a black woman who is open minded enough NOT to condemn me to hell every time she sees me (or at least give me that one stare that every woman does when they're uncomfortable around you...I used to get that one a lot). I love that about her and her too of course. Maybe I'll write a post focusing on that one day. My life is truly unfolding. My life is truly getting so much better. I am really FINALLY starting to enjoy my life! But like I said before, to explain it all...(See title)