Ma

It's literally almost a year since my last post and a lot has happened in this year. The most important thing is that I've lost my mother. She was so influential to my life and so instrumental in teaching me how to treat others. I can thank her teachings for the success in my job, my relationships with my friends and my girlfriend, and also my outspoken criticism of most religious people's thought processes. She was a christian, mind you, and she believed the god of the bible was alive and well. I was able to tell her I was an atheist before she died and she accepted me for who I am. She was always so loving and giving, such an altruistic person and she passed that onto my brother and I. She always believed that it was god helping her to be so kind and caring but little did she know that it was all just her. She taught me how to love and what healthy love is and is not. I learn from her mistakes and implement the triumphant successes she taught us as much as possible. I'm definitely going to miss her, but I can't really miss her much. She's always in my figurative heart. :-) It's been that way since I moved out of the house. I keep her on my mind and in my heart so I don't miss her too much. I know I'll never see her again but I'm ok with that. She isn't suffering and stressing anymore so I'm ok with that. She always spoke so surely about heaven. For her sake, I hope she was right. I hope she's in the mansion she dreamed of with the streets paved with gold. As for me, when I die, if that's so, god's got a lot to answer for before I fry. Just saying. Goodbye ma. We miss you. Yes, my room is clean, I'm eating good, and pooping regularly. No need to worry about me. Just hope you're ok.